I did it!!!!

This weekend I finally felt so much better and at peace. Then I finally put a name to what I had been going through the past month. I have completed the 5 stages of grief, and I didn't even know I was going through them.

Stage 1: Denial.
Stage 2: Anger
Stage 3: Bargaining
Stage 4: Depression
Stage 5: Acceptance

Stage 1; Since April I have been denying the reality that my husband would get a job.
Stage 2; My fears of the job market being worse this year than last year were confirmed (this summer) with the beginning of the financial meltdown. The Governments involvement/interference made me angry.
Stage 3; trying to make deals with the Lord. ("Lord, I'll do more if you want me to, if that is what it will take, etc....")
Stage 4; (the worst and longest) I gave up and didn't really care about anything except my immediate family and taking care/protecting them.
Stage 5; Last week I was listening to Glenn (yes, we are "thinkers" in our house) and he was discussing how things are going to continue to get worse and we just need to hold on to our family,our faith and find the good. He also mentioned humor and how sometimes, it's so bad you just have to laugh.(I can't remember the exact dialog, but it really touched me and helped me out) That got me thinking about how there are some good things for our family about this whole "mess". We have no mortgage and no large retirement/investments (M.G. only has a little from teaching summers). We do still need the job, but fortunately we have an amazing family who is willing to take us in. Thanks Mom and Dad!

Also, last week I started a little online job to help us out, so that was a blessing. I am very busy now with the household, work and packing up the house (which helps keep my mind occupied). Only a few more weeks here. WOo HOo!